Khloe Kardashian split from Lamar Odom in 2014 after he had cheated on her with multiple women over the course of their seven year marriage.
And in the former basketball star’s new tell-all book Darkness To Light, which will come out on May 28th, he says he regrets it deeply.
“I wish I could have been more of a man,” Odom, who admits that he was unfaithful to Kardashian and also hid from her his addiction to cocaine, tells PEOPLE in an exclusive interview. “It still bothers me to this day. But regret is something we have to learn to live with.”
“For a while, being with her was bliss and I was the happiest I’ve ever been,” Odom writes in his book. “We were one of the most famous couples in Hollywood and we made more money together than we had individually.”
But Odom struggled to fight his addictions to sex and drugs.
“At the start of our marriage I was faithful to her,” he writes. But eventually, he started having affairs, while at the same time hiding a full-blown cocaine addiction.
“I could not handle the lethal cocktail of the spotlight, addiction, a diminishing career and infidelity,” he writes. “Oh, did I mention the paranoia, anxiety, depression. … I couldn’t keep my d— in my pants or the coke out of my nose. Drug addicts are incredibly skilled at hiding their habit. I’d get defensive and Khloé would just drop it.”
In the new memoir he reportedly also confessed to sleeping with over 2,000 women, and came clean about being a sex addict.
Not Wilt Chamberlain numbers, but still very impressive.
Lamar is now back to playing basketball and working on sobriety one day at a time.
This guy deserves comeback player of the year.
Check out some pics of Lamar’s Ex below:
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